Maybe it happened before I could see or hear
Before I even knew my mom’s face
I learned to be silent
As far back as I can remember, I have had no voice
What I have had
are lots and lots of feelings
But feelings without a voice don’t ever have a chance
They don’t get to be heard
They don’t get to persuade
They don’t get to learn
I never got good at having them
They caused me anxiety and worry
They were bottled up and held inside for so long
They turned into other feelings and those feelings became bigger
Than the voice I lacked
They became their own voice
Unstoppable
Feelings I could not contain or live with
And the life I was living
Was not the life I expected
I was the opposite of who I thought I would be
With a past that haunted me and sometimes still continues to hurt
My knight in shining armor
Never came along
Or maybe he did
But the silence I lived in
Had me in a place so remote
That not even royalty could reach me
Until I met my King
Jesus
He adopted me
I’m his royal daughter
And he continues to take
All those unspoken feelings and words
To change my life into one that I could never have dreamed possible