Beat the Heat

A candle melts from the heat of a flame. Ice cream softens from the warmth of a sunny summer day. Ice liquifies when taken out of the freezer and put into a drink.  When encountering some heat, they all change shape. They weaken. They become a different consistency. And it is impossible to get them back to their original state without the loss of some of their substance or form.

Grief and sorrow cause my soul to melt. They leave my heart in bad shape. They weaken me. They threaten the consistency of my faith.

Without God’s words found in God’s Word and the words He speaks into my heart, I would be hopelessly changed by heartache. I would be the wax that melts into a flat puddle and then hardens. I’d be the ice cube that melts on the ground and then evaporates. I’d be the ice cream dripping down the side of a cone becoming a sticky mess.

Grief is part of life. It can’t be avoided. But God can and does prevent me from completely falling apart. Unlike a candle, ice cube, or ice cream cone, the melting I experience will never be my demise.  He will strengthen me.  He will help me to be able to withstand the heat!

“My soul melts from heaviness;

Strengthen me according to Your word.”  Psalm 119:28

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A Merciful Memorial

This past summer I began a study of the book of Romans.  This is from my journal, written on July 19th…“Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another…” Romans 12:10

Kindly affectionate in Greek means cherishing one’s kindred; fondness of natural relatives; fraternal toward fellow Christians.  The idea repeats itself a few words later, “with brotherly love”. 

So, I am to think of my fellow Christians as my family.  I am to value them and esteem them so highly, and let that set the tone for how I treat them.  In fact, we are all to do this to each other.  If we are all esteeming and valuing each other, we are all setting examples for each other.  We fill each other with value.

I wrote that much and stopped.  And then I wrote:

Hard to concentrate.  Today is my dad’s memorial service.

I didn’t think I had anymore to write about.  I thought the verse was very clear.  It didn’t seem that there was much to elaborate on.  But I was frustrated, because I like to have a finished thought and an “Ah-ha! moment” at the end of my writings.  At the same time, I wondered what I was doing trying to even think deeply at that particular moment.  My head was so full of my dad and my heart was so full of the sadness of missing him.  And then I understood just why I’d read that verse that day.  The rest of the journal page says this:

This verse is so fitting for today and for my dad, because he did this every single day to everyone.

The passage in Romans goes on to say, “…not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality.”

Anyone who knew my dad would have to agree.  All of that was who my dad was.  What a particularly tender mercy from God I felt as I understood why my study of that book led me to being in those exact verses on that exact day.  While I was grieving, I was (and continue to be) so thankful that God blessed me with a dad who set such a loving example for me to follow.

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Dad’s Home

My dad is no longer here on Earth with us.  He is gone.  Gone — almost like he was when I was growing up.  He was often away from home on business trips.  He was gone.  Somewhere else.  Well, the same is true now.  He has gone somewhere else.  Heaven.  And when I dwell on that fact, I find great comfort (and a little envy as well)!

When I was growing up, if my dad was in Monterey, California — one of the places he used to travel to for business — I would be able to picture that.  I’d been there myself, so I knew what it looked like.  If my dad was in Ohio — another place he often went to on business trips — I would have had to find books  with pictures and descriptions of the place, because I’d never been there.  But I would have been able to get a pretty good idea of what Ohio was like.

My dad is in Heaven.  I have never been there.  But I do have a book that tells me about it.  My Bible.  I will admit that a lot of it (the parts about Heaven) are confusing.  I think that’s because Heaven is so hard to describe with human words. 

But this is what I am confident of:  He is present with the Lord.

“So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord.  For we walk by faith, not by sight.  We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.” (II Corinthians 5:6-8)

He is dwelling in the house of the Lord.   

“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” (Psalm 23:6)

He is living in complete and perfect health.  He will never experience pain again. He will never be sad again.  He will never cry again. 

“And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying.  There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” (Revelation 21:4)

My dad is still who he was.  Same personality.  He is just now in Heaven instead of here with us.  So…

He’s busy greeting people with his smile and finding out everything about them.  He’s having indescribably happy reunions with family and friends.  He’s singing with the Heavenly choir.  He’s tending to the gardens.  He is playing with the children.  He’s learning.  He’s running.  He’s laughing.

He’s finally seeing himself as God has always known him.  And all the layers of regret and the limitations of sin and imperfections are gone!  He is worshiping God.  He’s in awe of the beauty around him just as he was awed by nature here on Earth.  He’s happy!  He is complete.

I miss him so much.  But as long as I remember where he is and the fact that I will see him again, I can bear the temporary loss of him much easier.  And like I already said, I’m a little envious!

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Healing for the Brokenhearted

“He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.”
Psalm 147:3

I feel brokenhearted right now — since my dad passed away.  My heart has been deeply wounded.  It is healing.  But it’s still very tender, and sometimes I have wondered if it will ever recover.

I found this promise today.  Psalm 147:3 tells me that God will heal my broken heart.  And until it is healed, He will bind it up.  He’ll bandage it so that it holds together while it is healing.  It’s not an immediate healing.  It’s a process.  But He’s in it from the beginning until the end.

Think of what a bandage does…

  • Some of the pain is relieved just from wrapping a wound.
  • It’s protected, because the bandage acts as a shield from further injury.
  • It’s put in the proper position to allow for healing.
  • It allows for the careful use of the part of the body that is wounded.

My heart is broken right now.  Yet…

  • I sense God’s tender wrapping relieving some of that pain.
  • His bandage is protecting my heart from further damage when I get stuck in a flashback of dad’s difficult last days.
  • I know He has set my heart in its proper place in order to begin healing.
  • My heart will still be able to be moved and touched.   I just have to be mindful of the state it’s in.

My heart will heal.  It will have a scar to serve as a reminder of the wonderful dad I was blessed with.  But it will heal!

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